for the past week, i have been the scardest i have ever been in my life. i almost lost the most important thing in my life. i cant believe it almost happened. but everything is cool now. i love her so much. i want to be with her forever. seriously we are meant to be together. this is the most amazing realationship that i have ever been in. it will always be the best realationship no matter what happens. but i dont think anything is going to happen anyways. =)


ohhh and btw, wednesday was one of the best days of my life no joke. 
i miss my baby so much, im not going to get to see her for a week and a half =(. 
i cant live without this girl, i think im going to like have to talk to her every day for like 47838927483274832 hours.

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i just feel like posting journal today haha
yea she is amazing and writes me stuff like this! =)

Oh and btw    I LOVEEEEEE ASHLEY KATHERINE BETTINGER!!!!

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Friday - was my anniversary with the girl of my dreams: Ashley Bettinger. I was not able to see her =( cuz i was grounded. it really sucked. but i love her to death. 
Saturday - my uncle was here. it was fun. yay.
Sunday - miss ashley soooo freaking much. it really sucks that i cant see her. i love her sooo much. 
Monday - i overeact about alot of things. things that i really shouldnt. its just the way i am and feel. i really care about her and i dont try to be overprotective but i guess i just really am. it sucks cuz i feel like she is really upset about it. i dont want her to be. i cant imagine what my life would be like without her. i love her so much more than she will ever know. me being this way is so unfair to her. i give her like no space to make friends when she is so short on them already. i cant believe im like this. its just how i react. i trust her and i always will. and i dont know why im so overprotective, cuz i know that its making her upset. fjkdaslfjdkaslfjdkaslfjdas;fdjakl;fdasj
i love her so much. and i hope that she knows that. 
i need to try harder on this.

im glad that i will get to see her soon though =)

Current Mood: dirty

welllllllllll, yesterday was amazinggggg! i love ashley bettinger sooo much its unexplainable. i cant believe how awsome this realationship is. tommorow will be 3 months since we have dating, and i can for sure say that it has been the best months of my life. she has showed me so much and i will never let her go. she is the best thing in my life and anyone who thinks they have what we have, your wrong. you will never know. jfkdajsklfjdklsjaklfjdklasfdkjasklfjdklsa!

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well, my life is wonderful, yea i have a few bumps but no biggie. i have an amazing girlfriend named ashley bettinger and im totally in love with her. today sucked but ashley knows how to make it all better. i really miss her rite now even though i saw her yesterday. ive relized how much it does suck to be out of evalyn. everyone in the band keeps saying how its not the same anymore. i really want back in. but i cant. ive been screwed over. it sucks. i love those guys. well, im sorta starting a new life now. the only thing that hasnt changed and will never changed is ashley bettinger. she will always be there for me. i love her to death. 

the new band or project or whatever is going good. im excited. =)

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yea so i love ashley bettinger

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